I Didn't Even Try!

At the place that we are currently being trained for close to 5 years now, we are often reminded that we are most wrong when we intentionally leave something out. When we intentionally forget. When we intentionally and conveniently do harm, as insignificant as it may be.

Drawing a parallel with my life in general over the past 3 weeks, I have done nothing but that.

I have deliberately done one too many mistakes out of convenience, fear, lack of confidence, LAZINESS, forgetfulness....you name it, and it'll probably make it to the list of adjectives!

I have tried to make so many excuses. Think and rethink. Rationalize such that I can redeem my guilty soul.

But at the end of the day, in the confines of my room, during those brief minutes when I wait to slip into slumber land and think about the days that I have spent;

I simply know that is my fault.

I cannot even say, "the rules were such, time was not on my side, things got busy, there wasn't sufficient time etc"...

The plain truth is: I had made these poor choices. And I know not what I can do. Today, it has reached its peak. And I'm tired of it.

Can I please try again?

"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength". Deuteronomy 6: 5;

I didn't even try - thus i've failed with flying colours!