There's Someone Else...

I'm not sure why I had to fall sick on a study break when I've made every single day matter to me!

I've just thrown about 20 hours away, sleeping.

I used to say that there are 3 important things I look forward to on a regular day: sleeping, meals, bathing (in the said order).

But that doesn't mean I cannot continue to expect, no?

I didn't realize that I have been asking for an answer the past week. It has been bothering me at very subtle intervals. It's been close to ten days, to be exact.

And today, amidst the runny nose, feeling of guilt and inadequacy and 'unpreparedness', I got my answer in a very unexpected way.

To add to that, I have a new reminder:

Remember those days when you're ill and everything, and you are so sure that the only people who would care the MOST (as in pray on bended knees and get all so worked up and lose sleep) will be your parents, since they bore you and will feel all your pain...

The truth is, they may know most things but not ALL things.

There's still someone else who knows the most minute detail in my life. There's still someone else who knows 'why in the world I am bothered by something so trivial'. There's still someone else keeping vigil for me. There's still someone else who cares so much, I cannot imagine how loved I actually am. There's still someone else who actually believes that I am worth it. There's still someone else...